sure, getting high may be fun.

but what about when you fall back to earth flat on your face?

you forget how much fun you were having don't you.

a lot is pissing me off lately. but i'm also in a care-free state. are these symptoms of depression? ...nah. i'm too bipolar.

i think i want to make a new xanga and start all over. besides, wtf is a manipul8ed_h8er.?? what was i thinking....

is this meaningless blogging? ...oh, well.

lol cat just texted me her tweet by accident.

i've been working on music a lot lately. it's my passion. hopefully, my future.

it's 5:30 AM. i've been waking up early incredibly early this entire month... lol so far, i guess.

i'm working pretty hard trying to get in shape for soccer. okay, i lied. but i'm trying. i can't resist buttery food! the taste! ohhhhhh

i went to a psychic a few weeks ago with katie. the psychic told me this month, August, was going to be quite a fortunate month for me (her exact words were something like "I see, in the palm of your hand, August will  be a big month for you"). we'll see how it goes. i have a good feeling about it though....

i'm constantly being struck with inspiration lately. interesting enough, i've been spending my time alone in the house. willingly. i kinda shut myself off from the world. not in a sad, anti-social way. just... i guess i need some alone time. to think. i'm worried about my future. i'm taking this summer to get everything together.

but now it's time to have fun.

only one month left, and i can't let this go to waste!

back where it all started

xanga died once myspace came into the picture.

myspace is dead now that facebook came into the picture.

i think im coming back home.

looking through my old posts, i can see that i was pretty... pathetic. i've changed so much since the summer before freshmen year. it is now my last summer before graduating from highschool.

i've had 3 relationships completely fall apart... but in such a subtle way. i've made so many new friends yet lost others. i've learned, the hard way, to depend only on myself. i've challenged myself in ways that shaped me into a better person. i learned to let go and gained a lot from doing so. and i let myself experiment without getting lost in the 'haze'.

it is now my last summer before graduating from highschool.

yet, i still have so much left to learn.

i'm turning 18 soon. there's still so much i want to do before i become an adult. i'm writing myself a list of things to do. but first, i have to finish reading 1984 and complete my summer assignments!

will post again, very soon.